may 31, 2026
it's about time i updated this site and wrote some thoughts down. i get excited really easily but then i have a tough time sticking to things in the long term. that kinda happened with this site too. but i added a finnish side here and i hope to add some of my finnish poems there! i've been writing more lately and i've been really enjoying it. next thing is to write some more long form stuff like short stories and essays. i'll hopefully get to that this summer. i'm very much at that point again where i'm excited to do stuff but i don't know if i'll be able to stick to it. so i'm worried that i'll forget about this site again.
when i got back to working on this site a couple days ago i really enjoyed it! coding is fun and writing is fun and i want to do them more. i want to get better at coding and writing but that requires tenacity. i have to stick to things even when they get boring and that initial excitement wears down. and that's difficult! but it's something that i can (hopefully) get better at with practice. i think it's a good thing that i get excited about things, i just have to learn to channel that excitement better to actually get things done. because i want to have more than just the hundreds of projects that i've started and then forgotten about.
i've been really tired lately, probably because i have a lot happening in my life at the moment. hopefully i'll have time to rest this summer. and i think being creative can also bring some more energy to my life. it's a challenge figuring out if i need rest or if it would be better for me to be more active. i've been sleeping a lot but that hasn't been helping in the energy department. so i need to try something else, like tinkering with this site and writing more could be the thing i need.
i won't promise anything because it's fully possible that i'll give up on this site again and spend the whole summer sleeping and watching silly videos on youtube. but maybe i'll be able to channel my exciment better this time. it's always good to have hope, so i'll hope that things will be at least a bit different this time.
sleepy but excited,
musteil